***** DENISA *****

On last Thursday, I was very angry, my heart was full of grif. But how I said, on Saturday, the first thing on my "to do list" was to clear up my program.

So I DID IT :) Informed already everybody from the company that I'm available from 8 am untill 3pm. THAT'S IT, FINISH!!! Dedy is very happy, we have all the afternoon together, having lunch, doing homework, cleaning, cooking , watching tv :) Shopping not yet, cause now she's very busy, the exams will start soon, so she has to study a lot. I love it so much, when I see that she is so ambitous, she wants to be the first one, she wants to know each and everything. Sometimes I tell to her to stop, to take a break, coz it's enough, but she start to argue with me, later, she agrees but only to shut my mouth. In the next 5 min. I see her sneaking in the bathroom (with her books):)

In January this year, she started the school here. Normally she should go in the 5grade, she also passed the exam for this, but because, she didn't finish the 4grade at the last school, she was not allowed. She was in German KG, and then in German school, but when my Lovely and me decided to come to live here, we signed her out of the school, and got an English privat teacher at home, to prepare her for the next school. It was hard time for her, she had already almost 7 years of school only in German language, and suddnely she had to change to English.At begining, she was confused, she didn't like to learn English, she was afraid that she'll forget the German, language what she loved so much and worked so hard to learn it, a lot of mess was going on her mind. In a very short time, (it was a surprise for all of us) she got comfortable with the second foreign language. The english teacher was very happy with her and make her to love English also.

Now we can't stop her anymore, she is like a sponge, she wants to accumulate all the informations.

My Lovely is checking every day, the status of her German language. We have so much fun, let's say, during 30 min. we are talking about 3 languages: english, german, romanian. We keep our brains very busy:) And the new thing is that, Dedy started French as well.........:)))))))))

And in the last Arabic test she got 20/20, She got already her present for such a great mark:)

Congratulation Our Princess, we love you so much and we are so proud of you, BUT YOU KNOW ALL THISSSSSSSS THINGSSSSSS :):):) her reaction would be: yayayayaya, blablablabla,"So can I go on Thursday to meet my friends in Sahara Centre?":):):)

What can we do? My Lovely and me, are looking to eachother and say"Let us think about", but of course, tom. we have to organize the program for Thursday, according to our Small One:)

LIFE IS SO GREAT!!!

Looooong Day

Oh, today was a super loooooong day......... I'm exhausted.
Awake from six o'clock in the morning and being on the way till the evening.
Why the people from this country don't care about punctuality???????????
This is the worst thing for me, it pisses me off really! I plan my day, all the meetings, I also call before to confirme, actually everything should be very well organized....But NO, every time something is coming between. So every day, I'm very late at home and totally out of order.

I don't like to have a maid in our house, I managed everything until now, and I want to continue in my way. I want to be the one who is looking after Dedy, not somebody strange. That's the reason for what almost every day, after school, Dedy is going to the factory or depend where I am, the driver bring her. But all this ways and waiting time are to much for her.
Today it was awful, I had a meeting in one of the company's outlets, so the driver droped her at the place I was. This happend at 3pm, from there, something came up, so we had to go to another cafe for another meeting. I was so fucked up, completely pissed of. She was so tired, I felt my heart is crying and during all this stupid meeting I was just thinking about her.
Tomorrow, I'll have off, but on Saturday, I'll fix this. No more. I want to be home earlier. This is not the way. My Princess is more imp. than any job from this world!!!!!!!!!!!

Thinking about my mother, it gives me a lot of Power and Energy.
She worked all the time, raised up 2 kids and later My Princess as well,looked after the house, everything was done by her self, without "maid", SO I CAN DO IT ALSO!

I'm so tired now, thinking about My Lovely, who is giving gas like a hell, every day, and he is still not home. Na ya, it's hard at begining, but I'm sure everything will calm down in the early future:)
Actually we are very happy that My Lovely has succes with his German Bread, and all the supermarkets are very impressed about.Now we just need to have little bit passion untill, the people find out the places from where they can get the Fresh German Bread.
I love you My Lovely, I love you so much!
Dedy I promise you, never will happend again, what's happend today! Stii ca Tu Esti Viata Mea si Ingerasul Meu!

Shopping

Finally, finally I had the chance to combine the work with pleasure!!!

After a super busy week, working and beeing on the way

from the morning untill late in the evening, I got the opportunity to go Shopping:)

I had a meeting in one mall,and then together with my princess just blenched to

explore the shops.

Das war aber super geil!!!

We were like escapeing from the jail, buing everything what we like, it didn't matter,

if we need it or not. We had so much fun! OMG what a goooooood feeling :)

Today was a very succesful day.

We had also a very important meeting with "Al Maya" ended in a very happy way.

Soon My Lovely will deliver at "Murooj" and "Jumeira Beach Resort" his splendid german bread.

Thank you God that You look after us!

Tomorrow it will be also a very busy and hard day, but I'm happy because weekend is so near, so I'll have one day for sleeping and visiting the beauty salon, spending time with my lovely family.

I wish you all to enjoy the weekend :)

Thoughts

The life on the sea, changed me so much. I became stronger and accumulated a lot of experience, regarding my job and most important: Life.
Meeting so many people, having different nationalities, coming from various cultures and traditions, gave me the opportunity to learn and know more about this world and to understand it easier. It was a hard job, but the life on the ship was dotted with so much fun. Everybody knew me, as a very tough and honest person, with a strong personality and character, but a big humour. I never lost my mind,or felt stressed when we had strong storm, when the sea was playing games with us beeing rough,or the restaurant was overbooked,or I met picky guests, and got complains. I always felt I have enough power to manage any problem, no matter what, my motto was:There is no problem without solution.

So what´s going on with me now?


Why I got the feeling, that I become such a weak and fragile person? Why my heart is so sad ? Where is all my strenght? Why I can`t help anymore the people I love and I care about? Why I feel that I can`t do anything, that I have two left hands?
Last year was the most difficult time from my life. My lovely and me, lost everything we had from one day to the other. Almost everything we have saved during so many years working on the ship. It was an extremely painful time, and very hard to hear the news, that the person we had so much trust has been cheated us. !!! Hope he will burn in hell !!!
Since then, we were living a time which squeezed, all my energy, hope, happiness and the joy of life.
Thanks GOD, I´m blessed with a wonderful Husband, Princess and a formidable Family.
They made everything to keep up my spirit! GOD showed me one more time, that I´m one of HIS favorite.
But still, I have to figure out what`s going on with me? The things got much better now, My Lovely is fighting like a lion and he progressed so much with his business.
Actually, I shouldn´t have worries anymore, soon I`ll start to work with him. So ,like in our best "epoch" we´ll be all the time together. Maybe this I miss, I miss the action and to be with My Lovely.
Anyway, tomorrow is Friday, So the best what I can do is, to refresh my mind and to ease my heart.
I think I´ll organize some fun for my Charming and Precious (small :)) Family!


Take care all and wish you a great week-end
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Pay Day

Normally, I´m not the friend of revenge. I always controled myself and didn´t let my brain and my heart to get dirty , I hate to hate somebody. My conviction is that GOD knows and see everything and everybody and our lives are in His power, none of us will leave this life without to pay for everything what we did, good or bad.
But NOW, not anymore, not with this person. I know I´ll spend a lot of my energy to pay back everything, but I´m ready to do it. God knows how many times and how loooong time I tried to ingnore all her direct and indirect attacks.
It´s finished now! I garanty you, that you´ll pay back for each and every bad thing what you did to my family, for every fucking word what you addressed to and about my daughter.
NOBODY nobody never ever, have hurted my daughter, you did it so many times, you tried to blame my child in front of me, without success of course, but when I remember how dirty and how foxy you were, playing the role of a good person, WHAT YOU´LL NEVER BE, tried to manipulate me against my child and my husband. What did you think? How could you dare to believe that you can turn me against my family? How did you dare to think that you are more important than my family?
My Princess is the light of my eyes and My Lovely is the love of my life! Nothing Nothing Nothing will change this ever!!!
You are a bad person, with dirty heart and no soul, selfish, greedy, envious and boastful, a Tyrand a Dictator! You order to everybody to dance after your songs, BAD LUCK FOR YOU, we didn´t do it. Hard for you to accept it, but YOU MUST!
I kept my mouth shut for such long time, I thought it doesn´t make any sense, you don´t deserve to waste my time and energy fighting with you, but not anymore. You bitch what you are, you´ll get back all the hard time what you made for us, ALL!
Like you are acting, even now after we have nothing in commun anymore, I´ll take action as well. From the nice, kind and lovable person I´ll transforme in an indifferent, bad and arrogant, untill I´ll get my peace and satisfaction. Soon you´ll get to know the other ME.
When I singned off I was the most CONTENTED person in this world, only the thought that I don´t have to see you anymore, and to listen to your stupid and aberrant life´s lesson and stories, made me Happy. Happy and relieved that I have nothing to do with you anymore, NOTHING!
You are envious on My Lovely, envious that he has success, and you have nothing.
Seeing how all three of us are like family, was a torture for you, gave you a guilty feeling, you´ll never in your life be able to be a real parent for your children. Your privacy is more important that your children.
Shame on you!

You´ll pay back for each and everything! 100000% Garanty!